Relationships....

Sometimes , no, all the time, i think about how EVERY relationship i was in was always so jacked up. And recently i find myself continuously in the same situation...I meet a dude, we hit it off, everything seems cool, but then i find out hes got a girlfriend already! And so instead of being smart and backing off because my instincts are telling me its not gonna work i let my arrogance and cockyness get the best of me. I try to make them see that they are better off with me and though its true they always make the wrong decision...and later in time they contact me saying that should have stayed with me. All i can say is "i told ya so" and by the time they realize that ive already began to try my luck wit someone else. I must admit that i was sad everytime something didnt work out for me...sometimes i questioned myself as if i had done something wrong as if there was something wrong with me. After a brief bout of depression i pick myself up and keep it moving...i dont know where i get my resilience from but im glad i have it...i wud be a mess without it

Im currently in my usual situation but it feels a little different hopefully im right....ill be sure to tell ya more eventually lol

Its been awhile

I havent had the drive or motivation to write a blog but i guess since i have some free time at work i can manage to say a lil something....