Relationships....

Sometimes , no, all the time, i think about how EVERY relationship i was in was always so jacked up. And recently i find myself continuously in the same situation...I meet a dude, we hit it off, everything seems cool, but then i find out hes got a girlfriend already! And so instead of being smart and backing off because my instincts are telling me its not gonna work i let my arrogance and cockyness get the best of me. I try to make them see that they are better off with me and though its true they always make the wrong decision...and later in time they contact me saying that should have stayed with me. All i can say is "i told ya so" and by the time they realize that ive already began to try my luck wit someone else. I must admit that i was sad everytime something didnt work out for me...sometimes i questioned myself as if i had done something wrong as if there was something wrong with me. After a brief bout of depression i pick myself up and keep it moving...i dont know where i get my resilience from but im glad i have it...i wud be a mess without it

Im currently in my usual situation but it feels a little different hopefully im right....ill be sure to tell ya more eventually lol

Its been awhile

I havent had the drive or motivation to write a blog but i guess since i have some free time at work i can manage to say a lil something....

gettin over it...

does it take a certain amount of time of time to get over someone?

my last relationship was about 9 months and it was my longest....but we broke up

and to my surprise it didnt take long for me to get over him....at first i was all sad and i didnt think i wud be able to get over him....but like one week later i was fine and ready to move on....

i had expected myself to take awhile to get over him beccuz of the fact that we were in love and becuz we were engaged....but nope, that wasnt the case at all

in fact, ive come to notice it is easy for me to get over someone if i find sum1 else...i dont really think thats a good idea tho...i didnt exactly get the closure i wanted and ive already started kickin it wit sum1 new...who i like alot...

but i still wonder if its all an illusion im creating for myself...maybe my feeling for my ex are there and im just buryin them to protect myself...

as of this moment, im lookin forward....

always trust your instincts

I thought for awhile that my "boo'' was cheating on me

turns out i was right

and HE GOT THE BITCH PREGNANT!!!!